Joyflower

Going thru some old photos on my phone today

and I happened upon this delightful beauty.

Thanks for the surprise, 

Auntie Joy! 

🌻

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Remembrance - Day 28 of 40

The Light of compassion 

on the first Sunday of Advent. 

💕

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Remembrance - Day 21 of 40

"We are always close."

Blessed be.

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Angels Watching Over Me

For many years now my Fall angel, lovingly handcrafted with straw colored raffia and 

cheerful orange and yellow sunflowers, has been looking over our house from the red side 

of our front door. 

When I started to put her out there several weeks ago, I thought it might be nice to have 

her here on the inside with me where I can see her from my comfy blue chair.

Then the Billing Angels needed a new home so, for now, they've been watching over me 

from this cozy cubby as well.

Blessed be.

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Shutter Happy ~ Day 21 ~ A Self-Portrait

Hubby and I had the pleasure 

of visiting a sunflower farm on Tuesday. 

#shutterhappy

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Shutter Happy ~ Day 20 ~ Soft

Ah, the pure pleasure of chilly fall morning moments 

snuggled up in a soft simulated suede down comforter. 

#shutterhappy

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Shutter Happy ~ Day 10 ~ Prized Possession

This sweet little angel was a delightful surprise 

from Darlin' Hubby a few Valentine's Days ago. 

 Seeing her on the card shop's shelf, 

he thought she might be a perfect accompaniment 

to his annual promise of roses. 

I have cherished her ever since 

and she has become my teacher. 

I love the way she just quietly stands in her place and shines. 

She doesn't overextend or underextend. 

She simply, peacefully offers what she has, 

trusting it is enough. 

#shutterhappy

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Shutter Happy ~ Day 7 ~ [Pale] Yellow

🌻  . 💛

#shutterhappy

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Breathe September 2017 :: Day 14 - Scent

Rose reminds me of my dear grandmother. 

#BreatheSeptember2017

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Breathe September 2017 :: Day 12 - Fun

Fun 

... is finding a wonderful surprise tucked in our mailbox yesterday! 

 Such a heartwarming bright spot on a dark and chilly day. 

(Still no power)

#BreatheSeptember2017

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August Break 2017 :: Day 27 - Stone

Believe 

❤️

#augustbreak2017

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August Break 2017 :: Day 2 - Gold

🌻

#augustbreak2017

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Sisterly Synchronicity

Yesterday's mail held the wonderful surprise 

of a new "fridge friend." 

I'm still smiling this morning, 

so touched by my sister's thoughtfulness 

and treasuring this sweet memento of their recent visit. 

🌻  .   💚  .   🌻

The timing was also a gift... 

the day after my vulnerable post about one sister, 

this wonderful surprise from another sister 

was tucked in our mailbox. 

Before taking a photo, 

I held it up next to my silk sunflowers 

as a secret reminder to myself 

to keep my face turned towards Grace, 

practice remembering that I am Enough, 

and to go where the love is. 

Yes.

🌻  .   💚  .   🌻

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Enough is Enough

Smiling softly as I need to quietly park this one here and spill a few words that I can't 

share in other places. 

❤️

I'm feeling hurt and have been for a while now, struggling with a sister who has all but 

cut me (and others) off because she feels slighted by what another sister did.

I want to be supportive because I understand needing space... 

But this not communicating (with most of us) and ignoring texts while happily sharing 

away laughs about her day over on Snapchat is getting old...

After some thought, I reached out via text this afternoon to confirm what I knew (she 

and her husband will be out of town while we're there next week), but hasn't bothered 

to let me know.

Her response?  Two words:  "yes, ma'am."

My emotions are all over the place and I wondered about trying to reach out again.... 

yes, knowing it probably wasn't a good idea, but wondering all the same.

And then I was reminded of this little card and I sighed a big "yes." The magnet under 

my hand was also tucked in my TOTM box and it says 

"May you know you are worthy."

I can't make my sister reach back.
I can't make want to have a relationship with me.
I can't do her healing work for her.

(All hustling, Deb)

I can let go (as best I can in each moment). 

I can trust that Enough (my word for 2013) is enough, 

and that I am worthy of love and belonging even 

when one of my sisters has distanced herself from me. 

I can remember my newest teachers, 

beautiful sunflowers 

who keep their faces turned towards Mama Grace. 

And, as best I can in each moment,

follow their lead.

❤️  .    🌻  .    ❤️  .    🌻  .    ❤️

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(Grateful for your witness)

Today's Self-Care Treats

Had a colonoscopy this morning and all is well. 

Reading from my book 

and drinking from my sweet new sunflower mug 

this afternoon was my treat. 

💛      🌻      ❤️

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Splendid Sunflowers

Sunflowers have been capturing my heart lately 

and it's been my absolute pleasure 

to accept their invitations to dance. 

I am coming to especially appreciate 

their patient encouragement 

to keep my face turned towards Grace, 

just like they do. 

🌻  ❤️  🌻  ❤️  🌻  ❤️  🌻  

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Breadcrumbs

Over here I'm being serenaded by froggie hymns and hubby snores. 

 The sun has set and my twinkle lights, 

which I haven't turned on in a l-o-n-g time, 

my beloved circle of angel Grace, 

and the jar of cheerful silk sunflowers 

are quietly, 

gently 

reminding me to b-r-e-a-t-h-e

while leaving breadcrumbs for me, 

reminding me of my way Home. 

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While not my favorite thing ever, 

I'm intentionally reminding myself

that it's ok to wake up and find myself in Indiana

(once again). 

I really do know my way Home 

and, just as I have so many times before, 

I'm slowly thawing and remembering 

that I really can and will find my way again.

Just be here, sweet soul.

Amen.

(Because it feels like a prayer)

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Saturday Snippets

Rode along with hubby on a gray, rainy Saturday. 

☔️   .   🌫   .   💜

When he finished up with his treasurer duties

we shared a late patio lunch

and then went for a short walk

to check out the bakery next door.

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All of these little lovelies called to me as we walked by

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While Hubby did a little more exploring,

I was enchanted with these lanterns.

It was a good day.

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Follow Grace . . .

. . . with my face, 

(Just like a beautiful Sunflower does.)

🌻

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